1/10/04
Why am I not sleeping?
Lately I've been waking up in the middle of the night unable to go back to sleep...and tonight I feel all anxious. And because I am anxious, I am anxious about being anxious. SIGH!
Damn hormones!
So I am here at 4.30 am...in front of the glowing computer...knowing I should be sleeping. I have a lot to do when the sun rises. I got to be awake for Micci, clean my messy house, and see about begging my mom for a small shopping trip. J. things I might be a bit anxious cause I am stressing over my messy house. He's mostly right. I am also nervous about my best mate's wedding (why I have no idea). I am sure if my mom is reading this she is saying well if you are so anxious about your messing house, then CLEAN it.
Ah you think it was the simple. I am anxious I think that I just have to do all over again...mostly due to Hurricane Micci and tropical depression Jamey. And of course me being a slob, as well...grin. And I am just sooo tired!
Moving away from the bitching and whining. Mic is the cutest little boy. I put him to bed at 9.30 (after the Spurs game of course) and let him watch the remaining minutes of Harry Potter I while he tries to fall asleep. Well I go in there about an hour later...thinking he's asleep and needing to turn of the TV. Well apparently after the movie was over, Mic let the film rewind itself and eject. Then he pushed the video back in, knowing it would play again. So I come in to him laying in his "nest" of blankets in front of the TV, wide away and watching the movie. He scrambles up, thinking I'll release him from "Sleepy sleep." Of course since I was on the way to bed myself, scooped him upback into his bed and re-tucked him in. He is getting soo big.
It just amazes me that he'll be two next month. He's nearly talking in sentences I can almost understand. Although he's saying what sounds like "sha up" (which soundslike shut up)...I am ignoring it and trying to get everyone that comes in contact with him to ignore it as well. I don't want him to learn what that can mean. I'd much rather Mic saying "fuck" than "sha up" to me. Shut up is NEVER cute coming from a child's mouth. I think I need to talk to Phil though, I think he's inadvertently teaching Mic that word. Phil uses shut up almost in every sentence...mainly as a way to deflect critisim (real or imaginary).
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