3/18/06
Say Good-Bye
Wednesday evening--I got a call I didn't expect. "We are deeming your car a total loss." We didn't think our car was that banged up. Apparently our car wasn't deserving enough to be repaired...too old (4), too many miles, too much wear. This was just a heads up call...and we had to wait until Friday to find out what the next step was. Our fingers are bloody stumps with all the nail biting--would the pay out be enough to pay off the car loan?? How much longer would we have the rental?
Friday is when they call us...after hours of wrangling and mnaking sure the facts were right...we get $4000...just enough to pay off the car and start a nest egg for our savings to buy a new car. So J. is relieved.
I however am not. I am trying to stay optimistic--this may just be a blessing in disguise. But I am still floundering. We had a plan and now its been shot to hell. Plan: car paid off in less than a year. FREE CAR. Save for a van with money that was going toward car payment. TWO FREE CARS. I would finally be able to get out of the house...I could take the kids to the library, play groups, field trips...grocery....what ever. FREEDOM. We got word that Phil was going oversees we would have use of his car. Cool--plan can be realised in part sooner. Micci can start making new friends! He can stop looking at kids through holes in the fence. He can invite friends to birthday parties. Accident happens and we really don't worry--except our insurance rates may go up. It was just a few panels that needs replacement. No big deal. We have Phil's car later that week...well that is a safety net in case the unthinkable and very unlikely occures(never mind resulting plumming problems). Well dammit it does happen and I realise I get the wrong end of a very pointy, barbed stick.
I can not drive stick...which Phil's car happens to be. So that means quite simply, I can not drive at all anywhere by myself to be by myself. "I'll teach you." Says J. When? He rarely has weekends off--when the only parking lots that are ever empty are empty are schools. And it's going to take more than one weekend...I've tried learning stick before--it didn't go well.
I am sure it will all work out -- it always does...but right now in the darkness of it all...I am worrying big time. I am sure in a few month we'll get a new car--and that everything will be better because of what happened. But right now I don't know that and it makes me feel very isolated.
And I hope Karma finds the rat bastard that hit us the second time and took off...I am sure if we didn't have thatdamage we wouldn't have had the car totaled.
Anyway--we said good bye to the car on Friday--emptied out all the stuff and went to Peter Piper Pizza for pizza and games--I was suprised they had good pizza. Then we went to Toys-R-Us to take part in the Thomas the Tank Engine sale. On the way home that evening--what did we see--our car on the bed of a tow truck, being taken away to some unknown scrap yard. Sigh--I hate when my cars get shipped off and sold for scrap. It's depressing.
Sigh.
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